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It's Almost Time To Go

8/13/2021

 
I did ponder sending Colleen (Madison's mom) an email from Madi, but decided not to. That thought bubble reminded me of assistance constantly requested by the PTA for Madison's elementary and Jr High aka Middle School. For a few years straight and every semester we'd get cards to sign up for classroom help, math tutor, classroom treats, everything they requested had check boxes. Simple enough, check most of them and here's a work and home email, work, home, and cell numbers. Every semester they'd phone and email Colleen because I signed her up for almost everything. About 8th grade Colleen asked me if  the PTA was calling and emailing me asking for help and I replied "yep, the first few weeks of every semester". Madison was with us and after her mom left, I told Madison what I do. She said Oh dad, she'll be so angry. Naw, that's why we're not going to tell her... yet. When Madison was in High School, I volunteered in the snack booth both flipping burgers out back, or tending a window taking orders and handling cash. I dug through my old photos and actually found the one I was looking for! Her school was looking for someone who had a boat who could talk about boat safety... Madison was so proud!  
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Years later, we told Colleen that I had been signing her up for all of the PTA activities. She laughed hysterically :-) 

A memory popped up recently that I thought I'd share, something I don't remember writing about here. In late December 2017 Madison had a recurring dream that lasted a few nights in a row. It's a rather simple dream but she and I both understood who the Father was. 
Madison was at a birthday party where there was soft music playing and people were talking and having a good time. From another room (she couldn't see who or a face), her Father... a voice she recognized but who wasn't me told her "Madison, it's almost time to go". Madison had that dream a number of nights in a row and then they stopped. We talked about it after it happened. Was her Father speaking to her in her dreams, was it an active imagination of an extremely bright young woman who bravely approached end of life?


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