One of the reality TV shows Madi liked was Tiny House Hunters: it features people who lived in 3-4,000 square foot homes moving in to a 'tiny house' that has only a couple hundred square feet living of space.
In late December I was hanging out with Madi and had fallen asleep. After I awoke she told me about the thoughts she had. She had already given prior permission and the password to her PC and it turns out that she had noted these thoughts, which I forwarded to my email. Being careful that I don't compromise her privacy on any level, I feel this musing is worthy of sharing. She told me about it...her attitude a quirky 'dang-it' along with sadness she'll be leaving moms and me soon.
In late December I was hanging out with Madi and had fallen asleep. After I awoke she told me about the thoughts she had. She had already given prior permission and the password to her PC and it turns out that she had noted these thoughts, which I forwarded to my email. Being careful that I don't compromise her privacy on any level, I feel this musing is worthy of sharing. She told me about it...her attitude a quirky 'dang-it' along with sadness she'll be leaving moms and me soon.
We talked about that and conceded while a sad reality, but moms and I were blessed having her here, age 18-22 when 'normal' kids are beer-bonging at frat parties wanting to be away from their parents. Moms and dads are biologically wired to love our kids. Mom's and I grew to really like and admire Madi as a phenomenal and spiritual human being, an inspiration, a quirky comic, and reminded her of that again the four extra years we got with her. So "dad odd", yes, Madison was moms-odd too. Nathan, a BFF of Madison's, told me on Tuesday that Madison called Valentine's Day... Singles Awareness Day.
I've learned many things about myself over her journey, many of us did. It turns out I'm quite the wimp! I had a couple of simple surgeries in 2017 and I was very nervous, more so than I thought I'd be. Seeing pictures in Madison's phone reminded of what a baby I felt like. Given the garments and hat she was wearing in this pic, you might surmise she wasn't getting a pedicure. A selfie and photo-editing sunglasses, classic Madi. I don't know if the pic made it out of her phone to any social media feeds, but certainly worth sharing.
I've learned many things about myself over her journey, many of us did. It turns out I'm quite the wimp! I had a couple of simple surgeries in 2017 and I was very nervous, more so than I thought I'd be. Seeing pictures in Madison's phone reminded of what a baby I felt like. Given the garments and hat she was wearing in this pic, you might surmise she wasn't getting a pedicure. A selfie and photo-editing sunglasses, classic Madi. I don't know if the pic made it out of her phone to any social media feeds, but certainly worth sharing.
Dear Madison - I'm trying to eat breakfast and this image pops in to my head. Excuse me :-). We all miss you terribly and yes, I agree that it feels cathartic... writing helps me too.
Love,
Dad
P.S. Thanks for the reminder that I can be such a wimp
Love,
Dad
P.S. Thanks for the reminder that I can be such a wimp
